Monday, January 17, 2011

Madison Monday 1/17/2011

I will probably never  have any children of my own.

Saying this, even virtually, brings a tightness to my chest and a lump in my throat.

I often wonder how many more times I will have to think or say it before I will numb to the notion of it.

I never imagined myself with a brood of children running all around me, but I never pictured myself with no children either.  I guess I just always thought I'd have plenty of time.

Funny thing about time.  It, like an ice cream cone on a hot summer day, goes a lot more quickly than we expect it to.

But instead of thinking of what might have been, I will instead relish what is.  That sweet little niece of mine with that brilliant smile, who, in spite of not coming from me still shares some of my idiosyncrasies.

When she, like me, doesn't want to go to sleep at night because the world is an amazing thing full of wonders to behold, I hold her and rock her and assure her that it will all still be there for her to explore when she wakes in the morning.


sandra said...

HI Heather. Visiting from SITS. I know you treasure your sweet little niece. She is so adorable and she is, in part, yours. Thanks for being so vulnerable. Sandra

LisaDay said...

I hope a miracle child comes to you, but in the meantime enjoy your beautiful niece.

Thank you for popping by on my SITS day.



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