Day #54 - Emotional
According to www.definitionofwellness.com, "The emotional dimension of wellness emphasizes an awareness and acceptance of one's feelings. Emotional wellness includes the degree to which one feels positive and enthusiastic about oneself and life. It includes the capacity to manage one's feelings and related behaviors including the realistic assessment of one's limitations, development of autonomy, and ability to cope effectively with stress. The emotionally well person maintains satisfying relationships with others."
I may not often feel Intellectually ill, but sometimes I am the poster child for emotional illness. ....wait....that didn't come out right....
Anyway.... Next to trying to find physical wellness, struggling for emotional wellness has been one of my hardest tasks. I think I was always a bit of a melancholy child and I was told I was "too sensitive" from the time I emerged from the womb, I swear! For some reason I have this deep abiding need for other people to "get" me. I want them to understand why I'm angry or frustrated. I need them to be excited when something excites me because it's the "coolest thing I've ever seen!" When they don't, (which is inevitable, really) I take it as a personal affront.
When you combine this desperate need to be understood with my desire to be empathetic to those around me, you have one heck of an emotional rollercoaster ride!
So, what do I reach for most often when I'm feeling down? First, these amazing little white pills called Bupropion (marketed as Wellbutrin). They are an antidepressant and they are seriously a blessing.
With the help of that little pill, the thought of walking out into the world each morning is much less daunting!