A New Life's resolution - Day #24 (Spiritual)

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Day #24 - Spiritual

According to www.definitionofwellness.com, "The spiritual dimension of wellness involves seeking meaning and purpose in human existence. It includes the development of a deep appreciation for the depth and expanse of life and natural forces that exist in the universe."

I grew up in the lutheran church.  I first attended 9 years of parochial grade school (K-8) and then 4 years at the lutheran high school.  I wouldn't change my time there.  I had wonderful friends, amazing fun most of the time and I think the high school education that I got was head and shoulders above anything I would have learned in the Fort Wayne public school.
 
The problem is that now as an adult, I am more than somewhat disappointed by the lutheran church.  Or at the very least by most of the people who call themselves "christians".  I stopped going to church regularly when I was in college for that very reason.  When I moved to Indianapolis as an adult, I tried to give it a go again and found another lutheran church to attend.  Unfortunately I seemed to encounter some of the same people, so I, once again, stopped going.
 
When I met Troy 6 or so years ago, I started attending his church (which happens to be Methodist).  Somehow something clicked with them.  Perhaps it's because they are a more liberal congregation or perhaps its because most of the time what they profess to believe is shown in their actions of love for one another and for the community as a whole.  Whatever the reason, I've been regularly attending this church since then.  I serve as a liturgist, an usher, as a member of the finance committee.  I am obviously heavily involved and have been called more than once by other members to join a committee or help out in some other way.
 
Here's the catch:  I'm not actually a member.  Every month or so I get a letter explaining that they are having a New Member orientation if I would like to consider joining.  Every month or so I simply throw it away without a second thought.  I joke that I think I have committment issues.  Maybe I do.
 
This month when that letter came, I didn't throw it away right away.  It's sitting on my table.  And I'm thinking about doing it.  Although even the thought of it makes me a little uneasy because I don't have any firm answers about what will happen in the future.  What if Troy and I don't stay together?  Will it be awkward?  If I join, will they have even more expectations of me?  Somehow that kind of pressure makes me a bit queasy.
 
So, on my spiritual journey this week, I will think about it.  I will consider it.  I will pray about it.  If you are so inclined, I ask for your prayers as well.  The meeting is Sunday.  I'll let you know.